• Infertility,  Miscarriage,  Pregnancy

    Healed from Infertility: Our Rainbow Baby

    I can’t explain the despondency I was feeling around the beginning of October. As we crept into the beginnings of the month, I was anticipating what would have been the first birthday of the baby we lost, and thinking a lot about what may have been. My husband and I had been going to a specialist for infertility since January and every trip yielded more depressing facts. When one problem improved, another unraveled. Here it was… October…. and if it didn’t work by November, the next step in the process would have required procedures my husband and I object to. I knew that in four weeks, I would hear the…

  • Character,  Miscarriage

    Where Fear & Faith Switch

    I heard someone say recently, that no matter how brave people seem, every person has a fear. It may be heights, or death, or the IRS, or losing your job, or drowning… My greatest fear? Growing up it was a superficial one. I was afraid of being buried alive. For years, I insisted to those around me that upon my death, all organs were to be extracted from my body so I could not wake up in the grave. And then, just in case, I wanted someone to assemble an air horn above the grave, with a cord tied to my hand, so I could yank it and alert the…