• Character,  Miscarriage

    Where Fear & Faith Switch

    I heard someone say recently, that no matter how brave people seem, every person has a fear. It may be heights, or death, or the IRS, or losing your job, or drowning… My greatest fear? Growing up it was a superficial one. I was afraid of being buried alive. For years, I insisted to those around me that upon my death, all organs were to be extracted from my body so I could not wake up in the grave. And then, just in case, I wanted someone to assemble an air horn above the grave, with a cord tied to my hand, so I could yank it and alert the…

  • Character

    She Wears Pink Glasses

    Mixed up in a pile of drawings from my grade school years, is a crayon portrait of my mother, and a list of facts about her. “My Mom wears draw string jeans. She likes turtle necks. She wears pink glasses.” I’m not sure what my little brain was thinking, or why I chose to talk about her clothes, but turtlenecks and pink glasses were not the reason I was drawing a picture of her. I drew my Mom because she was my hero. She was the one that painted pictures on shirts for me, and did my hair every morning, obliging me with my choice of spunky and colorful hair…

  • Character,  Ministry,  Prayer

    Are You Ready for Church?

    Comb your hair, straighten your tie and pull your suit jacket on. Strap on your heels, dust your hair with a final cloud of hairspray and take one last look in the mirror. Grab your purses, your Bibles, your keys and head out the door. You’re ready for church. But are you ready for church? It’s easy to forget the entire purpose of coming to the house of God. Our motive shouldn’t be fueled by an empty obligation to fulfilling the social protocol for being a Christian. We don’t go to church simply because that is “what we’re supposed to do.” The purpose of coming to church is to set…

  • Character,  Money Management,  Single Girl

    Sorry Wal-Mart

    I actually used to be quite cynical about Valentine’s Day. To be fair though, it is a single girl’s DUTY to be cynical on Valentine’s Day. Who else is going to gag over all the girls swooning over lavish gifts and laugh at the men sweating bullets over their presentations? It’s kind of the unspoken rule when you are single, to be grossed out on Valentine’s Day. Plain and simple. But deep down… well… I’m about to shed a little light on all that gagging… It’s a survival mechanism. When you walk through the store as a single girl and the aisles are packed full of giant teddy bears, the…

  • Character

    The Ugly Truth about Hurt

    As much as I hate to admit it, I was lying in bed last night, trying to fall asleep, when those scenes began unfolding again. My mind swirled with the unsolved mysteries of motive. It wasn’t the biggest deal in the world but it just kept nagging me. I wanted to tell that person a few things; diplomatically set the record straight. I wanted to make sure they and whoever they influenced with their unbridled actions got the true story. But, believe it or not, I’m actually brighter than that. Chasing redemption for hurt feelings, no matter how well you have planned your execution, is a slippery slope. I knew the…

  • Character

    I Am Not A Proverbs 31 Woman

    This morning I read Proverbs 31. It’s kind of crazy, but I realized that I actually tend to avoid anything branded with “Proverbs 31.” A book that includes it in the title… I’ll pass. A blog named after it. No thank you. A radio broadcast with gooey encouragement about cleaning up Cheerios. Power off. It’s certainly not because I am averse to disciplining my life after the model set before us in scripture. It’s not because I don’t desire to be like her. It’s not because I have anything against her pattern. It’s because the term has become so misused and abused that it simply does not measure up to…

  • Character,  Prayer

    The Long Forgotten Service: Prayer

    Because we are experiencing many changes in our lives here, several of my posts have centered on the adventures surrounding milestones and major events. Each experience we go through together is part and parcel of a “marriage learning process” and fits the ‘genre’ of this blog and thus, I hope may be profitable to someone reading. But, setting all of this “in between time” and “adventure” aside, there has been something lingering in my mind for several days on a more practical level. Currently, Mark and I are in a transition phase, seeking God for the next move. As we packed our belongings and overloaded our Camry, one thing burned…

  • Character

    God Doesn’t Need Me Anymore

    I remember sitting in the tiny blue trailer that I called ‘home’ when the supposed reality hit me like a ton of bricks. God doesn’t need me anymore. I was suffering a crisis of worth and this seemed like the only thing that made sense. Why else would everything point to me being “pushed aside” and “forgotten.” When I entered the ministry a few years prior to this “crisis” I had just turned 19. Feeling small and inadequate, I laid my life before the Lord and surrendered to His call ready to pour my heart and soul into His work. I grew to love the things He gave me. I…

  • Character

    When the Devil is So Interested

    I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror today. Generally the only time I spend in front of a mirror is the 4 or 5 minutes each morning that I pull my hair back and make a brief check for anything overtly embarrassing. But today, I saw myself and I paused to evaluate some things.  While I stood there, obvious changes that have taken place over the last six months quickly became apparent. I have aged. Dramatically. I felt sorry for my husband. I did not have the youthful appearance I had when we first met, or through our happy time of engagement. I was now a woman with…

  • Character

    Are You a Virtual Wife?

    This past week I discovered the joys of “Link-Up Parties” and “Blog Hops”. What fun I had surfing through all the insightful posts all over the blog world. I learned a lot of great things, saw some pretty cool recipes that I intend to try, and I was challenged by not only the blogging standards, but the lessons that were taught by many of my fellow Blog-Hoppers. It re-energized my ambitions to write and to continue to share the things I am learning and living every day on my journey as a wife. There was one thing though that piqued something buried deep in the long forgotten corridors of my…